Feb 16, 06

Took bus home from SIM. And the bus passed by Raphael's house.

Everytime, i pass by Raphael's house. I will always look longingly into the lane that will bring me closer to him..tears will just well up inside me.... n i just got to look away so as not to think about the pain of him not being near me. And concentrate more on my goals and aims. Guess it is difficult for a mother not to see the son and feel his little hands holding onto mine.

Pain.... guess work is the only thing that can numb the pain inside me. I got to be more busy and concentrate more and not let my mind ran to things that are not within my control. I have control over the kind of life that i want to lead.... happy and carefree. And nothing can get me down.

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Feb 15, 06

I miss my parents.... don't know why. Maybe by the way raphael treats me.. makes me understand my parents more. They just want more time with me irregardless what we do together as long as we are together... guess that is what i want from my baby too.

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Lost Weight

I have alot of colleagues and parents who came over and commented that i slimmed down a lot. Really a lot. That's good. But they tend to carry on and ask me the formula. Haha. So i just told them with a straight face, only 2 words - 'Get Divorce'! All of them have the shocked look. But later they laugh it off. I

hope everyone realised that the worst thing in life that could happen to you is to marry the wrong guy and try to get rid of him is the tedious part especially when he is a loser who has nothing to fight against so therefore got to stoop to the lowest end with his face on the floor to try all means of way to get what he want.

I disrespect these kind of people.

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The Lion's Proposal

Once upon a time, there was a fierce lion known for his evil deeds.

One day, the lion came across a pretty girl while drinking water by the river. The lion thought, "Such a beautiful lass! I must marry her!"

The lion quickly cleaned himself up in the river, combed his mane and steealthily followed the girl as she returned home.

Then he knocked hard on the door, calling out, "Anybody home?"

The girl's father, a farmer, opened the door and was startled to see a lion there.

The lion said, " Don't be afraid, I'm here to propose to your daughter. What do you say to that?"

The old farmer thought,"How can this be? My daughter is never going to marry this vicious animal. But if I reject him, he will kill me right away. What should I do?"

The girl, who was hiding behind her father, whispered, "Dad, do something, please!"

The old farmer had an idea and said to the lion, "I will let you marry my daughter, but are you sure you won't eat her when you're hungry some day?"

The lion solemnly said, "Yes, I promise i won't eat her."

The farmer continued,"I'm still not convinced, unless you pull out all your teeth and chop off your claws. These two things will scare my daughter to death!"

The lion agreed to fulfil those two conditions and then he got ready for marriage. When he appeared again, toothless and clawless, the farmer was no longer in fear of him, so he hit the lion hard with a stick. The lion cried out in pain and fled.

What is the moral of the story?

Love can make you so 'blind' that you willingly give up your precious belongings for love, and end up a loser

Why did i suddenly post up an Aesop Fable?

Cos this is how i view my mother in law. Love for her son made her so blind that she gave up her rights and her authority to her son. And ended up listening to the son... even condoning his actions in brain washing my son although she is a mother herself and understand the feelings that i am going through... she is thoroughly at his mercy. No wonder he is always yelling at his mother and behaves like the whole house belongs to him when the father is not around.

The only lucky person, in that family, has left for greener pastures. Smart move.

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Feb 10, 06

It's just such a hard job to undo a lifetime of brainwashing...

Alot of things have been going through my mind during this period of time. And i wonder why people especially that idiot behaves that way. Cos i can never stand in the shoes of him as i have never been such an idiot before. Maybe when i got married to him. I was in his shoes for a while before i wake up.

First, why does he feel the need to brain wash my son?

- for fear that son will choose me. Or he can see that he will lose custody of the kid in the near future if he doesn't brain wash. Guess it is fear of losing the son... that is why he chose to brain wash thus hurting the son emotionally and scarring him for life.

Second, why does he behave so immorally?

- cos he doesn't have a father beside him or a figure of authority over him to tell him that whatever he does is morally wrong and it is bad for raphael. Sometimes, i pity him. For the way he was brought up. In a family that is not whole, not loving, not close. With no father around him then and now. And all he does when his father comes back for a week or month is to wayang and be on his best behaviour and not let his father knows what he has been up to when he is not around. Pity.. is all i have for him.

Lastly, why does he need to be so hostile to me when the gf is around?

- he is under the support of his gf. Giving him little little cash to tide him thru and of course sexual favours when he is stress up. Which he didn't and cannot get from me. Anyway, the gf is out of job so i guess the sexual favours are the main thing. And how can he afford to displeases his girl.. when no one wants him except this one...

Both deserves each other as both are as ignorant, with family problems, uneducated, childish, insecure and equally despicable.

It is only my son whom i am the most concern. Who is currently being brought up in a family which has family ties so messy. Father in law having affairs most of the time. And the worst of it all, with a child who is of the same age as his own grandson. How ironic! With my mother in law being kept in the dark about the idiot's life ... cos he always tell lies to his mother on his whereabouts. Eg. when he was out with me, he always tell his mother that he is working. And the mother stupidly believes all the time.Now, she said that he has only one gf. How did she know? Just because he brought one girl back? Who can be so naive?

Disgraceful is the word to describe that family.

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Feb 03, 06


Surprising enough... both my parents went down this time round. And not unusual, the whole family is out. Knowing that i am suppose to fetch Raphael on every friday at 7pm. That idiot as usual, breach his own petition again by not informing and just went out like that. Both my parents waited till the police came.

Oh Raphael....I love you so much. When can i see you again?

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Feb 1, 06

It is a sad day for me today...really sad. Talked to Julian about Raphael and how i felt although he was supposed to be off today. Went through the momentum the whole day. Tears fell in the afternoon... just by thinking of raphael... tears just run like a tap....

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Jan 30, 06



The Hepp family came over in the morning. The only thing i heard when Joshua walked in was ... where is Raphael? So i told my cousin... of course she knows about it. About the one sided brain washing. Anyway, they had a happy time playing with all of raphael's toys. Reminded me of the time Raphael played with his.... And when Joshua placed his hands on my shoulder... tears just welled up... thinking of the time you put your hand on my shoulder on my birthday to take a picture together..... i miss you much raphael

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Chinese New Year

Raphael,

Without you during Chinese New Year is a sad affair... with relatives, cousins asking about you. And hearing about what has been happening.... makes everyone feel so sorry for you. It was certainly a bad bad year without you here with us.... Thinking about you always....

Mommy

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Jan 29, 06

When your children are grown, what would you like them to remember about you?

The lies that my ex told...??

Although i can't control all the memories he keeps, but i can be sure to help make the ones that count....One of the ways to develop good memories for your children is to learn the art of celebrating life.

Life is a Celebration

If an occasion is worth celebrating it is worth celebrating because God made it so. Whether it is birth , life, love, marriage, graduation, dearth, naterional integrity, material plenty, or spiritual salvation that we are celebrating - it is a gift of God. Celebrate in such a way as never to offend the Giver! Eugenia Smith-Durland

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Jan 28, 06

Thought of the day: Hypocrisy is not a parent's first duty.

I reached for the photo album and opened it, remembering...... all the times when i was with my son. His innocence in life ..... being taken away by lies fed to him consistently till he will grow up believing it wholeheartedly.

Someday.. he will know... Someday.. Maybe.. Hopefully...

I love you Raphael.... and missing you lots

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Jan 27, 06


Jerome confirm did the brain washing. My son told me that daddy said that i have a lot of bf. And daddy carried him when he was a baby and i threw a cup at him and hit daddy. Saying that i don't love mommy, grandma and gong gong. He no longer talk about the fact that i didn't give him food. He left that out completely.... it seems that his brain is replaced with new information.
And i asked him, why did i do that? Did daddy tell you that he hit mommy, slap mommy and throw mommy against the cupboard? He said no. And jerome said, when did i ever do that? And he turn and ask raphael, do you think daddy will hit mommy??? and son said no. He denied everything that he has done. Kept on saying that i was bluffing and daddy didnt ever hit mommy. And he put all the blame on me, thus brain washing son. He left out all the facts of his actions that resulted in my actions.... And he keep on repeating the things he want raphael to remember.... malicious thinking of his has been instil in my son.

Police were called in, had a long chat, the police even gave me his private cell phone number. Cos he said that he can see that the son has been brain washed thoroughly ... and there is little that he can do also. And jerome said that he wants to get married to his gf. Who cares? I don't bother. He can go to hell with his dog for all i care. I am only concern about my son well being. And from what i know, mother in law have this kind of thinking as to not to hit raphael incase he run back to me. This kind of thinking will definitely do lots of damage to my baby....

Baby is so innocent. Get brain washed by his one sided malicious thinking. And baby said that all i say was bluffing, he only believes daddy and ah ma. What a joke! Loser didn't mentioned what makes me walk out on him.... him hitting me. And all his unmanly ways. That is what makes me leave. What right does he have to hit me? TWICE.... once while i was in maternity. And mother in law knows it.. but she chose to say.... don't have in front of the police.. .how vicious.... siding that loser blindly. And she still proclaim to be a faithful buddish and of course.. idiot with his baptism... ways.... claiming that he is a christian. I realised that both of them hide behind their beliefs ... and doing evil things... in the name of God..... May the Lord be merciful to them.

THOUGHTS
Two main approaches that are open to me as of the moment. One, I could choose to continue status quo and carry on going through whatever I have been subjected to over the past few weeks. Of course, there is a high possibility that the emotional baggage may escalate in future. At the end of the day though, I would have met my objectives. Telling conseqences of what could happen to my son would be that because of the preferrential treatment given to him due to my presence by my in-laws would result in him developing undesirable traits from that family and thus resulting in me wasting all my efforts.

Two, I could choose to walk away and spare myself the heartaches and embark on a new life. Easier said than done. Rational? But then again, human's emotions have never been rational. However, there may be the remote possiblity that perhaps, just perhaps my son will be brought up n a much stricter manner, for his good. Hey, he may even resent the treatment and start thinking of where his mum is... hopefully. But the future is not to be foretold, which MIL always like to call back to Thailand and ask... thus giving her the direction to go in life and the choices to make which guarentee a win win situation for her. Bias.... superstitious... their fate is already paved ... if one can tell the future .... there will be no diasaster in the world already.

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Jan 20, 06




Went to his house as usual. His car is not around. Called for Raphael a few times. But no reply, after waiting for 10 mins. Some lady came over to the gate speaking in teochew. Saying that they all went out. hmmm....

I don't believe it. Why would mother go out and leave a stranger... although it is a friend alone in the house? So on hindside, i went to the back gate after walking a big round... saw mother behind so took a few photos of her cos she told a lie saying that she is not around. She immediately picked up the phone and called the idiot. The idiot asked,where was i? So she told him that i was behind at the back gate... and taking pictures. And she said..... the lawyer say let her take huh.... so okie.... then apparently she is not happy although that idiot said his lawyer said let me take. So she went around and took the dirty laundry water and flung it at me. I was totally wet through. Of course i yelled and make sure all the neighbours hear how nice she is to pour water on me when i just want to see my son at the allocated time.

The police came. Jot dwn all that has happen. And i glanced into the house and saw that she was at the railing looking out and on the phone. No prize for guessing who is on the line.... she got to report to that idiot all the time. He called... and my phone was in silent mode.....see no reason to return call... do not have anything to say to him....

Baby, i am doing everything i can just to see you... please be with me. I need you raphael.....
You will always be in my prayer.......my baby

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Jan 18, 05

As a responsible adult, I am now old enough and wise enough to understand that no one's life is perfect or even normal. Everyone has a past, everyone has issues. Life is waht we make of it. With each and every day, I simply apply myself as best as I can.

I will no longer be affected by childish, selfish, despicable acts against me. Cos i know that there will be a rainbow after the rain. And my baby will understand this when he grows up. Just looking forward to the rainbow.... with my love.

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Loving Words to Raphael

I know our divorce isn't easy, and i am sorry. I truly am. I know school isn't always easy or dealing with other kids, or things you have to face on a daily basis. No offense. but that's life.
Everybody has problems. Everyone.

I'm not trying to be a tough peson about this, but no matter what happens to you, it doesn't give you an excuse to blame other or wallow in self pity. There are no sets of perfect parents, no one has a perfect life. And as you grow older, maybe you can learn something positive from our mistakes.

In life you're going to make mistakes, you're going to fall down, but it's getting up that counts. But don't quit. Find your focus, relax, take a deep breath and give it a good shot.
The things is, at the end of the day you still have to face yourself. I can't do it all for you, but my job as a parent is to make you a responsible, functional, productive adult.I'm not here to raise you as a child, but a happy, caring, nurturing man.

There is nothing you cannot accomplish if you want it bad enough. The choice is yours. Always has been, always will be. Be true to yourself, and you'll be fine.

I will be here all the way supporting and loving you in everyway that i can.... Even when i'm not physically with you, not a single day passes that I don't think about you and pray for you...

My arms will always be wide open for you till my end of time... just remember that.. my baby.

This is my promise to you my love... No matter how things turn ugly between your biological parents.

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Lawyers letter

Received a super outrageous demand......

The lawyer's letter:

Our client is to have sole custody care and control of the child of the marriage

As your client has not had acces to the child of the marriage since September 2005, our client proposes that your client has access to him on Saturdays from 10am to 7pm.

Your client is to fetch the child and return him to his residence at 32 Fulton Avenue.

Your client is also to furnish our client with your client's parents' residence address and telephone number.

Our client will also require the telephone number of the matrimonial flat.

There shall be no maintenance for your client neither party shall have any other claim again the other for a share of the assets in the other party's sole name.

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Jan 17, 06

My baby Raphael,

He's afraid to come to me for fear of reprisals against the ones who are looking after him.....

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Jan 16, 05

He stopped me from taking my son by not opening his gate. He condones his son in calling his gf mommy ... He brain washed baby not to talk to me. Of course he can't stop me from talking to baby. But he stopped baby from talking to me. That is why Raphael ignored us all the while when we talked to him. All his sentences are so insinuating and full on underlining meaning and his actions showed Raphael that he can disrespect us and behave in a rude manner towards us... and therefore baby is learning all these bad habits from him through his actions.... all these show how despicable, childish and immature he is.

13/01/2006 17:26:43
My stand still remains firm... I nvr stop u fr talking 2 baby neither will I mention a word 2 him tat u're nt his mummy ... take care

Then may i ask.. why is he calling his gf mommy... and his actions condones it by not correcting him. And his mother just laughed it away....

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Dear Jerome,Please note:I will be fetching Raphael on every Friday at 7pm as you have stated in YOUR petition.Please enable access (open the front gate) to allow me take my son home irregardless of whether he wants to or not.In the beginning of the year, son also does not want to follow you home and cried everytime after the weekends. But you have taught him that he does not have a choice. So in the end, he always left us with tears in his eyes. Nowadays, it seems that you have taught him another different approach as in he has a choice. I guess you have changed your mind about the values that you are teaching. But a child who is under 16 years old do not have a choice in his life especially those who are under the influence of improper values taught when young.Please do not use the same excuse everyweek. As my son is still young and do not need unneccessary wrong information to be pass on to him. Eg: I am not his mommy and i am bluffing him.Thank you for your cooperation.
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13/01/2006 12:01:45
My stand is d same.. if raphael dun wanna go wif u, I will nt allow u 2 forcefully take him away...

13/01/2006 11:57:52
Wad time?

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Jan 14, 06


Bought something for raphael...hope he likes it.

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Jan 13, 05





Friday. Same thing happened. Denied access. And baby learnt something new.... when we try to show him what we have brought. He said 'I also have!' and ran back in. So i guess, the idiot taught him to say that....

Let's make a bet. Next week, baby will say, daddy can buy for me... ha ha. Anyway that idiot didn't even bother to acknowledge us. All the time he just said one insinuating sentence again.' I am eating, don't disturb me.' Hmmm... a reminder to raphael again.

Anyway, his girl was jumping around again.Why is the gf always around? what is he trying to prove and show....

The police came and he didn't even take notice of them. He pretended not to hear and not to see the police outside his door. So rude. He ignored the police... and didn't even bother to come out. Can he do that to the police? No respect for the ppl in uniform and the law. And he sat there writing all the way..

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Jan 12, 06

Especially for Baby Raphael...With all his hurtful words and actions ......I doubt in years to come ...Or when I am old ....Some wounds just won't heal...And will carry into my grave with me.....


These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase
(My Immortal - Evanescence)

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Jan 11, 06

Sometimes, Raphael keeps on crossing my mind. Feel like calling him all the time. But just don't want to hear the mother in law voice. And guess i just don't like the feeling of baby slamming the phone on me everytime. Missing baby lots....

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Jan 10, 06

Personally, I am not being biased against my ex, but from his actions, i gathered that such a man, should really grow up more in terms of mindset and behaviour. Sometimes you can really tell what a person is like from the way he/she behaves. And the methods they used to get what they want, thinking that it is for the good for the other. Which is not in the same alignment as the psychiatrist... but I think he has a problem with integrity, reflected in the way he brain washed and taught baby to call his gf mommy, of which he could only claim to do it for the best interest of child.

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Jan 08, 06

Last night, slept over at mother's place. I seem to have nightmares from last week onwards on that idiot. He has been invading my dreams... and showing me all the despicable things that he can do to the son.... traumatising him.... Bad dreams all the way.

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Jan 06, 06

Same thing happened again. He denied access and my son has hurtful words for me again. Verbal abuse was all I had from that idiot and with his girl jumping around taking pictures. Walked all the way in the rain, soaked all the way through...crying my heart out.....Oh Raphael, how much you have hurt me with those words of yours.... only you can do that to me.... and he knows it therefore using you to hurt me needlessly....

I REFUSE TO BE DISCOURAGED

I refuse to be discouraged,
To be sad, or to cry,
I refuse to be downhearted,
And here's the reason why...
I have a God who's mighty,
Who's sovereign and supreme;
I have a God who loves me,
and I am on His team.
He is all wise and powerful,
Jesus is His name;
Though everyhing is changeable,
My God remains the same.

My God knows all that's happening;
Beginning to the end,
His presence is my comfort,
He is my dearest friend.
When sickness comes to weaken me,
To bring my head down low,
I call upon my mighty God;
Into His arms I go.

When circumstances threaten to rob me from my peace;
He draws me close unto His breat.
Where all y strvings cease.
And when my heart melts within me,
And weakness takes control;
He gathers me into His arms,
He soothes my heart and soul.
The great "I AM" is with me,
My life is in His hand,

The "Son of the Lord" is my hope,
It's in His strength I stand.
I refuse to be defeated,
My eyes are on my God;
He has promised to be with me,
as through this life I trod.
I'm looing past all my circumstances,
To Heaven's throne above;
My prayers have reached the heart of God,
I'm reing in His love.
I give God thanks in everything,
My eyes are on His face;
The battle's His,
the victory is mine;
He'll help me win the race.

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Jan 01, 06

Happy New Year Raphael! I love you!

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He tried to be violent and tried to snatch my camera from me when i took picture of his gf. Luckily for the gate, i moved back.... he raised his voice and his sudden move towards me made raphael ran back inside his house.... What is Raphael afraid of? His movements or his tone?
How can the gf take pictures of me .... and why can't i take pictures of his girl? Why is he being so protective over his girl.... his smirk...

I stand tall and i walk straight with my head held high with no fears....

Chinese Proverb: Nobody knows when you do good, but God knows when you scheme .....

Photoshop done by a friend

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Bible Verses

Matthew 6:33 - But seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness, and all these things shall be added to you.
"I would cling to the faithfulness of my God in Christ, and throw my poor arms around thee, thou blessed Jesus, when all things appear the most dark and discouraging." - Robert Hawker

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Some Facts

Tendency of violence
Raising voice whenever we had disagreements, however big or small
Slapping me fully on my face such that I was thrown back, even though at that time I was in my 3rd week of maternity in the in-laws鈥?home.
Grabbed me by my hair and flung me against the clothes cabinet and subsequently pushed me across the room with so much force I ended up with bruises in the matrimonial home

Financially incapable and irresponsible which is expected of a husband
Expected me to pay for a share of the household electricity bills of the in-laws鈥?home even though I was just drawing an allowance while studying and he was drawing a stable income of over $2000, to which I complied
Always divided all child-incurred expenses equally even though I was just drawing an allowance while studying and he was drawing a stable income of over $2000, to which I complied.

Such child-incurred expenses included:
Diapers
Milk powder
Baby clothes
Baby accessories
Baby toys
Expected me to pay for the fuel of the car鈥檚 consumption at times, even though he was the main user of the vehicle even though I was just drawing an allowance while studying and he was drawing a stable income of over $2000, to which I complied
Expected me to assist him in paying for his bills even though I did not expect the same from him even though I was just drawing an allowance while studying and he was drawing a stable income of over $2000, to which I complied.

Such bills included:
Car related loan
Handphone bills

Constantly defaulting on his share of the payment in household electricity bills of the matrimonial home such that electricity was cut off. I had to pay off his share to reinstate the electricity to which he did not return
Lied to me that he had difficulties paying for his share of the household electricity bills of the matrimonial home as he had to pay for his share of household maintenance of the in-laws鈥?home. Upon checking with my mother-in-law, it was verified that he had been not paying for his share of household maintenance of the in-laws鈥?home by claiming he had to pay for his share of the household electricity bills of the matrimonial home
Failure to return monies borrowed from me during marriage and separation on time, and even then after much chasing
Obstructing me from performing my role as a mother to our son
Instructed our son to acknowledge his present intimate girlfriend as our son鈥檚 鈥渕other鈥? confusing the mind of a 5-year old child who had been acknowledging only one women as his 鈥渕other鈥?during his whole existence
Regularly influencing our son not to meet up with me during the allocated time on weekends by promising him treats (e.g. cycling and kite-flying trips) fully aware that it was my turn with our son and that he would reject me to go out with him
Obviously threatening our son to avoid showing affections for me as our son would whisper words of endearment (e.g. 鈥淚 love you mommy鈥? whenever he was out of earshot
Obviously threatening our son subsequently to avoid contact with me as our son immediately avoided my phone calls and visits to him after one enjoyable excursion with him to my parents鈥?house and nearby playground in October
Behaving intimately with his present intimate girlfriend by hugging, kissing and allowing her to sit on his lap in full view of our son and myself inclusive, confusing the mind of a 5-year old child who will be wondering about my relationship with him, even though I always refrain from such behaviour and never disregarding his status as the father of the child
Prevented me from seeing and bringing my son out in 2002 even though it was my allocated time. I had to call in the police.
Prevented me from getting near to my son while it is the time allocated for me on paper.

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Dec 31, 2005




Went to fetch raphael as i messaged him informing him that i will be bringing my son out at 9am. Please get him ready and he said ok. He was not ready. And idiot did not open the gate giving the excuse that the son doesn't want him to open the gate and hid the keys, and he wont force the son to go with me. What a load of bullshit! He is denying access by not opening the gate. And of course the son does not want to go with me due to his 3 months of brain washing. And the mother also listens to the son....When did a mother got to listen to the son and he even raised his voice... with the gf inside ....the gf still act cute and ya ya... came out to the gate and hop around... trying to gain attention. Police were called..... and he confirmed that i have the allocated time but he still do not want to open the gate... and of course the son said no while looking at the idiot for confirmation of his answers..... sigh... i felt so sad that my son is used as a pawn in his childish acts. I just got to get the court order ..... to prevent him from making things difficult for me.

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Dec 30, 2005

Had an appointment with lawyer. Mother went with me. Get him to sette some legal matters. Got scolding from my lawyer... for not taking advise the last time round..... sigh... Got to pay for the actions...

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Dec 28, 2005

One whole stack of papers are pasted on the door when i came back from Thailand. Divorce papers with whole loads of bull shit and lies. The reasons are atrocious... and unbelievable.

I immediately called baby... and he keeps on slamming my phone.... he kept on asking which mommy and my mother in law... answered.. the seng kang mommy.. i was so pissed. As an adult and she is condoning her son actions ... and baby's way of calling the gf.....come on. He has only one mother and that is me... no way it would be her cos she didn't give birth to him so what right has she got. Anyway, all thanks to the idiot's brain washing....

all i can do is to wait for baby to grow up.... it doesn't matter what he says or does...as long as i love him.... he will come to realise it one day.....

At last, now i know why the brain washing.. and the sudden change in baby's reaction towards us. Due to his fore planning... he brain washed my baby and then settle the papers..... I didn't see his despicable act till now...

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Dec 18, 2005

Tried calling baby on sat and sun. But as usual, nobody picks up the phone and of course the he also never picks up his hp. Wonder what is HP for if it is always never pick up. Purposely avoiding me... and not letting me know of son's whereabouts....

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Dec 16, 2005


Woke up. Called the house so many times, nobody pick up the phone. On wed also like that, but i went down the other day and got to see baby... and it happens that no body wants to pick up the phone. Today, went down, but the house was empty. Guess mother in law brought baby out to her friend's place. Was rather disappointed cos this is the last weekday that i can see baby cos weekends are now occupied by him and his girl.

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Dec 15, 2005

Today, didn't go down to look for Raphael cos he say that i cannot see him.. notice the words... he used cannot instead of don't want. I guess this is an improvement. It is not his choice that he don't want.... poor baby. He has been corece into believing that .....

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Dec 14, 2005



Met up with mother. Headed down to see baby. Uncle Kim is there. Baby is over at Uncle Bobby's house so we went over to see him for less than 10 minutes. He still does not want to follow. But he stood at the gate and waved to us.... till we got out of sight. It is enough... for me. I don't dare to ask for much.... or even a whole day with him after the idiot brain washing. Now, i am just contented to see him whenever i can. A simple request... but so difficult to do. Wonder what will happen when school reopens....

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His photography skills


My baby took this. Asking me to make funny faces. Of course, baby's words are my commands. So i did it.. and his peals of laughter... really make my day. I love him so much!

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Dec 13, 2005






Called up Mother in law. And happen to realised that they came back yesterday. And obviously he never say anything. Not even telling me anything and not even bother to tell me that they flew off or came back. I went down immediately with my mother to see baby. I missed him like crazy. Played with him outside the gate. And the mother in law don't even have the courtesy to invite us inside. Just let us sit on the floor outside the house gate to play. Baby Scars.. and his rashes on his arms make my heart aches so much that he was not well taken care of. And that idiot don't know what happen. Came back at 3pm to fetch son and mother in law out. He must have known that i was there... and took leave to come back... thus cutting short of the time with baby. But nevertheless, its okie. We left earlier as we do not want to see his face. As long as baby knows i love him and want him badly.... that's it. Baby grows taller.. i love him deeply. I just hope that he will understand me and come back to me when he is older.....

I love you.... you know that i do. What can i do... to find the truth... you know i love you.. forever and ever... will be together.. and i'll do it ... just for u.. just for you......

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Dec 13, 2005






Called up Mother in law. And happen to realised that they came back yesterday. And obviously he never say anything. Not even telling me anything and not even bother to tell me that they flew off or came back. I went down immediately with my mother to see baby. I missed him like crazy. Played with him outside the gate. And the mother in law don't even have the courtesy to invite us inside. Just let us sit on the floor outside the house gate to play. Baby Scars.. and his rashes on his arms make my heart aches so much that he was not well taken care of. And that idiot don't know what happen. Came back at 3pm to fetch son and mother in law out. He must have known that i was there... and took leave to come back... thus cutting short of the time with baby. But nevertheless, its okie. We left earlier as we do not want to see his face. As long as baby knows i love him and want him badly.... that's it. Baby grows taller.. i love him deeply. I just hope that he will understand me and come back to me when he is older.....

I love you.... you know that i do. What can i do... to find the truth... you know i love you.. forever and ever... will be together.. and i'll do it ... just for u.. just for you......

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Dec 5, 2005

Monday. Baby got Chicken Pox... poor thing. All the way in Bangkok with no parents at his side. He got it before he reached there i presume..... I wish i was beside him all the way. 500++ Baht for his medical fees... at least it shows it is a better doctor. .... i hope. And of course... tat guy never call to tell me about it at all. He never did. He only knows how to complain when baby gets sick over at my place..... never dare to tell me when he is sick if it is he is the caretaker. Only know how to point fingers....... Poor Baby...

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The word Mother

A beautiful tribute to MOTHER ....

A baby asked God, "They tell me you are sending me to earth tomorrow,
but how am I going to live there being so small and helpless?"

God said, "Your angel will be waiting for you and will take care of you."

The child further inquired, "But tell me, here in heaven I don't have to do anything but sing and smile to be happy."

God said, "Your angel will sing for you and will also smile for you. And you will feel your angel's love and be very happy."

Again the child asked, "And how am I going to be able to understand when people talk to me if I don't know the language?"

God said, "Your angel will tell you the most beautiful and sweet words you will ever hear, and with much patience and care, your angel will teach you how to speak.""

And what am I going to do when I want to talk to you?"

God said, "Your angel will place your hands together and will teach you how to pray."

"Who will protect me?"

God said, "Your angel will defend you even if it means risking its life."

"But I will always be sad because I will not see you anymore."

God said, "Your angel will always talk to you about Me and will teach you the way to come back to Me, even though I will always be next to you."

At that moment there was much peace in Heaven, but voices from Earth could be heard and the child hurriedly asked, "God, if I am to leave now, please tell me my angel's name."

"You will simply call her, "Mom."

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Dec 2, 2005

Today is the day.... Raphael is born... A day where pain... excitement... needles... blood.... and the smile that he gave when he is put into my arms... the memory is so strong. He is mine... he came out of me. My love... my baby... How much i think he is so beautiful.... His blood and my blood are the same... we both have the same blood....running through our veins. My son.. Carried him for 9 months.. while i was in NIE. Having exams with my big stomach... with him kicking inside me.

And now, he is in Thailand ... not around to celebrate together.... it is a special moment for mother and son.

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Nov 26, 2005

Tears fell down. Wits end. That idiot get baby to call me at 1 plus in the afternoon for no particular reason at all. Baby's words pierce through my heart... like a sword that is so sharp... that drew blood.... "Mummy, i don't want you anymore. I want Joreen mummy and daddy. " Is it on purpose that he get baby to call to affect my day this way... he has trained him well.... tears fell... heart broken. But yet i cannot blame baby at all cos he is still young... a piece of white canvas... drawn by the idiot , confused about the facts... lured by the devil in that idiot .... all his sentences with hidden meaning. I asked to speak with daddy.And in the background i heard him said that he don't want to talk to me cos he is eating. Get son to rely messages .... and ask why is he eating so slow... " I don't want to be HUNGRY" This sentence itself with hidden linings of that day when he was late in fetching son... and baby got to go hungry.. cos i don't want to get blamed for letting him eat when idiot is fetching him out for lunch... but yet... he has his ways.. of making it seem that i am depriving baby of food intentionally in baby's innocent eyes.... If i give,he will barked ... like i intentionally let baby eat so that he cannot eat when with him..... Childish in using the son.... naive and innocent is my son .... How i wish my son is old enough to see the flaws... childishness.... despicable ways of that idiot.Till today... my tears... still fall whenever i remember baby's hurtful words....but yet, i have to be strong for him.. to return when he see light....

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Nov 26, 2005

I tried to called him on Thursday and Friday. Why is it always nobody picks up the phone .... caller id is installed but yet... on purpose. He has already deprived me of my time with son... is this the way he is trying to make sure i am being cut off all ties from him? Pain... mother's love....

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Nov 23, 2005

I miss him terribly. Tried calling him since 11am, either nobody picks up or it is engaged as usual. Wondering if this is the kind of treatment i get from showing love to him... I sure hope he grows up fast and come back into my arms... again.

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I went to Raphael's place to see him. I told baby that i will bring him out for a while. Mother in law was beside him all the while. He looked worried ... and repeated a few times to mother in law. Not to tell daddy that i go out with mummy. It hurts so much to see him so worried. He walked to the car, but once i opened the door... he pulled at me and said .. Mommy, i don't want to go out. His face is so worried and kept on glancing at mother in law....I told him i will bring him back before daddy comes back and daddy will not know. In the end, he still backed out and said no. Guess he was really so scared, worried and insecure... about mother in law telling Jerome of the outing. Baby decided not to take the risk in going out with me to incur the wreath of him. So sad whenever i looked at him... knowing that how much he wanted to go but yet the fear of making Jerome angry, disappointed .. etc. So in order not to make things difficult for baby, i left with a heavy heart with Baby standing at the gate watching forlornly... Tears fell down once again.....

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Nov 15, 2005


My husband allows and condones MY son to call his gf mummy.... What kind of mentality is that? No wonder he doesnt want to go out with me cos the gf promised him so many things during the weekend. One month MC, he had already brain washed MY son not to go out with me at all... and started to call his gf mummy??????? What right does she have to claim rights to my son? I am so hurt....

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Nov 8, 2005

Tuesday. Tried calling the house from 300 to 330pm. I made at least 10 calls.... but the phone was engaged. Is it on purpose when the mother knows that i will usually call at this time cos it is my usual break time? Or is there a problem with the phone? Or did they hang up the phone... it is only through phone calls that i get to speak to baby without the idiot presence.... now i am not only deprived of time with him..... i am deprived of even chatting with him.... Is he that scheming that he cuts off all contact with me and my son..... for it is always his goal and aim to have a direct cut of me from my son's life.... as he has said it in my face before.

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Nov 5, 2005

That idiot can make me boil. Message him at 9am to tell him that i want to fetch Raphael at 12pm.... in the end.. he only return message at 12.15pm..telling me that he just received the message. So I called to talk to raphael.... and he doesn't want to go out again.... i wonder why again. So i told him that i will go over and see raphael in the afternoon .... he was outside with raphael already and don't know what time he will be returning.... NOW... again... i understand why baby don't want to come out again... cos he promised to bring him out. And he knows that i am suppose to bring him out. It is my time of the week to spend quality time. One month of MC at home for him really changes baby.... he has all the time in the world pretending that his neck hurts so much after the accident... to his colleagues. But yet... he still can play badminton... go and do sports with his girl. So scheming. And he has the cheek to say that he has been waiting for me to go over and fetch baby at twelve... when he only message me back that he received the bloody sms at 12 15pm.. so how can he say he waited when he don't even know the message of me intending to fetch baby at 12pm.. what a joke! So brainless when he answered back. Mother called raphael also... and was chatting to him happily.. when mother in law... talked to raphael.. it is obvious that she knew that my mother called to chat with raphael... and during the conversation halfway... you talk to raphael... purposely drawing attention to yourself... and divert baby attention.. and he will forget abt the phone call hanging there... and he did forgot. Whyam i always subjected to this kind of treatment from that family... it is my son we are talking about here? I gave birth to him. And you brain washed him to go against me.... what morals are these?

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Oct 28, 2005

After that heated up talk with Jerome, No wonder.... everything fall into place. My son don't even want to come out cos he is in that girl's arms. Until he told him to come out cos Grandma is here to see you. Look at his choice of words... terrible. We CAME TO FETCH him... not to see him. Come on. He knows that son won't follow... that is why he knows that we can only see him. Raphael keeps on glancing at him. Seeking his approval. In the end, he came out... but kept on glancing at the gate for his father. Gave him chocolates and show ome of his toys... he took the toys and ran back inside the gate to show them. Then after a while, he came out and close the gate. I wonder what had he told him.... As far as i know, he won't just close the gate on us. Then we called out to him again, this time round, he said something out of purpose so loud..... tell raphael to go out..... It was quite surprising that when Raphael went in that time, no sound of talking at all .... come on... son cam in with some toys to show you.. there must be some sort of converstaion.. but we heard none of his voice and he came and closed the gate????? Impossible. Raphael came out... still with the worried look. Jerome came out and raphael immediately stands up ... actually he was sitting on my mother's legs. He was so figitive.. and seems to be always glancing at the door. He said that he missed us softly. Before he ran off inside... he whispered.... to tell us to call him. If only i had video taped down all his reactions. It showed that he wants to come but yet.... so afraid of angering or displeasing the one he lived with. Surival skills. He had cough and a bruise mark of his right side of the face. He told us he fell down. Jerome still say 'feng liang hua' you want you can take him out.... i am not stopping you. Ha ha... of course he is not.... when he has already ensure that raphael won't follow us. But smart enough, we waited outside the house for a while. Saw that he took out the bicycle and put inside his car with raphael behind him and with the slut waiting at the gate..... Ha ha..... Mystery solved. He promised that he will bring him cycling later... again... regardless of him following or not. What's the point in making the son confused?





Sad case. Tears fell down. My son has been brain washed by him. Now, he doesn't even want to follow me anywhere at all. It hurts so much when you are being rejected by the one you love unconditionally. Being a mother is difficult. He brought up the past stuff to say me again. He happened to tell me that his mother flew off today. He stopped himself in time to tell me the location. How convenient. Anyway, that is not important. He yelled like a mad man about the house again.. and all his rights. He is such a loser to behave this way everytime. He said that he wished that i would not see the son ever again. I mean.. that sentence is enough to know how far to the extend that he will make it happen. Now is just the beginning. There is no way that son will choose not to follow me. I have not hit him before or yelled at him before. And to the extend that my son is hidding behind him. He must have told him something. Excuse me.... Brain washed till ... the pain hurts so so much... and he knows that my son is the only one who can get into the outer core of me... and reach the inside and make it bleed. He knows it and he got me by my archillies heel. Pain pain.. oh Raphael.. what did daddy do to you?

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Oct 18, 2005

He never fails to make me affected. I called him to speak to Raphael and he still want to say something that spoils my mood. Told him not to say anything cos i am going to have my exams and all i want to do is to listen to raphael's voice.. But he don't give a damn and talk all he wants and he slam my phone down. So irritating and i didn't even get to hear Raphael's voice..... If i failed.. he will be definitely be super happy.

In the end, i went for my exam without hearing Raphael's voice.... disappointed as he is my pillar of strength and confidence.

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Oct 15, 2005

Last lesson CDAC. Called Raphael and he said he wanted to come. So i took a cab... and tried calling Raphael's house.. Nobody picks up again. I called 4 to 5 times. It is always like that... is it on purpose? I wonder... But i still go as raphael said that he wanted to go to grandma place... and guess wat? Raphael changed his mind in not coming with me anymore. Why the sudden change? Raphael kept quiet. In the end, mother in law told me that Jerome said that he will be bringing him to the beach to cycle.. so therefore he wanted to stay at home and wait him. Why is Jerome always like that? Whenever he knows that i am going to fetch son... he will always say somethings to my son and in the end, the son will not want to go with me. Make me so disappointed everytime... and in the end, I got so affected by Raphael's rejection. So sad....

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Oct 7, 2005

I had my exams. So therefore, I never fetch baby. I miss him terribly....

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Sep 30, 2005

We headed down to Bishan. That girl is back playing badminton outside with him and raphael. I thought he was hurt.... and his neck cannot move.... and he took one month MC. I can't believe it. Anyway, Raphael don't want to go with me. And that girl kept on talking to him like trying to take up my time.. I wonder what is wrong with him....She ran off with another guy and come back half a year later... what does she treat him for.... Anyway, Raphael don't want to go back with us so we didn't want to force him. But we waited outside for a while. No wonder.... Jerome must have promised raphael to bring him out for cycling with the girl that is why raphael don't want to follow..... They loaded up the car with bicycles and went off. Why is he keep on promising raphael things when he jolly well knows that i can only see my son once a week only....

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Sep 24, 2005

Posing for picture with Natasha
He wants to blow the candles but no candles available.
He is so unhappy.

Raphael trying to hit the mouse's head with sweets inside.


Having a terrific time in the water

Saturday CDAC. Went to mother's place after that. Raphael was asleep, me and mother waited for him to wake up then we got ready and took a cab to Joshua's house. Lots of fun with games, clown and Raphael went for a swim for a while. At around six, we went back home. Jerome wants to fetch Raphael at 1130pm at night but he was already asleep. HE can really drives me nuts everytime. Why is it that he always fetch son so late and i always need to send son back at around 8pm when the reason given by him that Raphael needs to go to bed early? Double standards...

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Sept 23, 2005

Friday. Fetch Raphael. We had prawn mee along bukit timah. He was so impatient. Kept on hurrying me to finish my prawn mee so that he can reach Grandma house earlier. He was so excited to go grandma house. Stayed a while at mum's place to have chicken curry before i went back home.

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Sep 18, 2005

Sunday... Baby is always so sweet.My ex called to tell me that he was downstairs already. 9.30am. Baby cried and said he don't want to leave. So i said he had to. So he bargain with me and wants to play scrabble before he goes so i let him .... he forms A to Z and then he is willing to leave. He has a neck supporter and he really looks weird. I doubt it was so serious till he cannot move.. just no sudden movement for him.

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Sep 17, 2005

CDAC and SIM lecture. After that, went to mother house and spend some time with Raphael. Mother and Raphael went to the park to take a walk at around 8pm. Jerome got into an accident at around 430pm. Heard that his car cannot be salvaged. He went to GH to get x-ray. He said he will fetched Raphael at 9am. But we waited will 12 plus for him to fetch raphael and he still has not come.... dad came back and was angry... She was so nice to come over to fetch me and raphael back to Seng Kang as Dad said such hurtful words that i left in tears... all becos of stupid Jerome lateness and his actions... make all of us angry. Anyway, I settled Raphael to bed before i do my work. And of course, Jerome never apologised for his absence in fetching Raphael.

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Sep 16, 2005

Begin super early in the morning. 7am - 12pm PSLE listening comprehension. After that, Ex came and fetch and we went to Seng Kang HDB to settle some issues about the house. Really don't understand the figures that came with it. He went to work and i took a cab to fetch Raphael.

No money still want to smoke.
Reached school at 330pm. Busied myself while baby watched the liondance practicing their steps. Shared a packet of chicken rice with him. Brought Raphael around. Oh, Raphael loves the spooky house. We got in at the back as the queue was so long till the classroom block. He went round and round and round...
Raphael was quite worn out and tired at by 830pm. We left and headed down to Singapore Swimming Club to have dinner. Raphael fell asleep all the way till we finished our dinner and fetched him back to Lakeside.

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Sep 9, 2005

After my course, I took a train down to mother's house. Went and perm my lashes. After that, went up to mother's place and start doing my work. Baby was so sweet. He knows that i am busy and going to have my exams... he didn't even ask and whine for my attention.. smiles. Occasionally come over and hug me and give me sweets to eat. He even asked me to work hard. Sigh... my little prince. I am so lucky to have such an understanding son who knows how to pamper me when i am totally stress up.

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Sep 7, 2005






Wednesday... got Aaron's car... went to fetch baby in the morning and fetch Aaron. Went to Tuas to deliver something for him. After that, dropped by my mother house to bring the pram out. Cos baby is already snoring in the car. No strength to carry him. Then he fetched both of us to Sim Lim to take a walk and settle some computer issues... luckily he was there... i was such a sotong when come to computer stuffs. Then he fetched us to KK hospital. Accompany mother and daddy for her appointment.

After that, rushed back to Mother's house. After that we rushed down to Dhobby ghaut with baby to meet up with cousins. Then met up with Simin to have Thai Express... Peiyin as usual, flew aeroplane. Me and Simin took walks while he entertained baby and brought him to the arcade.... After that, got to travel all the way back to the west to bring baby back to mother's place. Baby fell asleep in his arms.. in the train.

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Sep 3, 2005

Saturday. CDAC tuition as usual. Went straight back to mother's place. Planned to bring baby to NIE but he slept till 330pm. Then we read together. Jerome came to fetch Raphael to church at 7pm. And we waited at the roadside for him..... I will miss him.

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Sep 2, 2005

Friday. Fetch Raphael after school and Aaron came and fetch me home. Raphael don't let me go home. Had a hard time pacifying him. I was so tired. And I can't stay over at Mother's place as tomorrow morning I have tuition. Sigh... I would love to... but i can't....Torn between work and baby.

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Aug 28, 2005

Sunday, took breakfast with family and bring Raphael to CDAC to give tuition.. Raphael was so sweet to wait for me. Luckily he has the gameboy with him. Then brought baby back to Seng Kang and let him do colouring online. He came and fetch him at 230pm. And as usual, baby was reluctant to go off....

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Aug 27, 2005

Saturday CDAC as usual. Went and fetch Raphael and he has not even taken his lunch when i have already specifically said that i will be there by 1245pm. What is the meaning? Know that i am taking cab there and still have not got him ready? Purposely is it? So in the end, brought the bowl and spoon out to bishan and went to Pastamania to finish it off before taking a train.




It was so totally unglam and uncool. So frustrating with that family.
Fetched him at 1245pm and he has not even started his lunch.
When i have already said that i am coming at 1230pm.
What kind of time manangement does my ex's family have?
Pissed me off. So in the end, brought the bowl and spoon out..
and ate it at Pastamania before we took train to my mother's house.
We had a fun time.. with his food, adding cheese on it too.
But i just hate the fact that they do not have time management
everytime and take up baby's time with me and parents.
Supposedly to have secondary school friends gathering at night. But Raphael is so wide awake till i can't even go out. He wants to sleep with me, I waited from 1030pm to 12 plus in the morning, he still can't stops talking and telling me how awake he is... children... in the end, i gave up and went to remove my contacts and makeup. He got up and follow me to the toilet and waited outside, afraid that i will run off... so in the end, i resign to my fate of not going out on sat night, slept beside him while he chatters away. Middle of the night,4 plus, switched on the air con for him cos he found it too hot. Woke me up at 8 plus..... so i made milk for him... and tried to fall asleep again ... but he insisted that i wake up. So i did... children... full of energy.

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Aug 24, 2005

Thursday and Friday no off nights for me too... Got SIM. Then i guess i will have to fetch baby on Sat afternoon. No choice. I miss baby terribly. He shit in school the day before. And it was rather funny as he prefers to shit at home, so he tahan till he cannot take it and soiled himself. Haha. Poor baby. He must have felt terrible... torn between shitting and the story the teacher was telling. And stupid idiot was laughing all the way when he was telling me that....

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A Parental Love

My mom only had one eye. I hated her... she was such an embarressment... my mom ran a small shop at a flea market. She collected little weeds and such to sell... anything for themoney we needed.... she was such an embarressment. There was this one day during elementary school... it was field day, and my mom came. I was so embarrassed. how could she do this to me? I threw her a hateful look and ranout. The next day at school... "Your mom only has one eye?!?!" ..and they taunted me. I wished that my mom would just dissappear from this world so I said to my mom, "Mom.. why dont you have the other eye?! if you're only gonna make me a laughing stock, why dont you just die?!!!" my mom did not respond... Iguess i felt a little bad, but at the same time, it felt good to think that i had said what i'd wanted to say all this time... Maybe it was because mymom hadnt punished me, but i didnt think that i had hurt her feelings very badly.That night... I woke up, and went to the kitchen to get a glass of water. My mom was crying there, so quietly, as if she was afraid that she might wake me. I took a look at her, then turned away, because of the thing I had said to her earlier, there was something pinching at me in the corner of my heart. Even so, I hated my mother who was crying out of her one eye. so i told myself that i would grow up and become successful, cause I hated myone-eyed mom and our desperate poverty..Then I studied real hard. I left my mother and came to Seoul and studied,and got accepted in the Seoul University with all the confidence i had.Then, I got married. I bought a house of my own. Then i had kids, too... Now i'm living happily as a successful man. I like it here because it's a place that doesnt remind me of my mom. This happiness was getting bigger and bigger, when....What?! Who's this?! It was my mother...Still with her one eye.It felt as if the whole sky was falling apart on me. My little girl ran away, scared of my mom's eye, and i asked her,"Who are you?!" "I dont know you!!!" as if trying to make that real. I screamed at her," how dare you come to my house and scare my daughter!""GET OUT OF HERE! NOW!!!"And to this, my mother quietly answered, "oh, i'm so sorry. i may have gotten the wrong address," and she dissappeared out of sight.Thank goodness... she doesnt recognize me.. i was quite relieved. I told myself that i wasnt going to care, or think about this for the rest of my life. Then a wave of relief came upon me...One day, a letter regarding a school reunion came to my house. so, lying to my wife that i was going on a business trip, I went. After the reunion, i went down to the old shack, that i used to call a house...just out of curiosity. There, I found my mother fallen on the cold ground, but I did not shed a single tear. She had a piece of paper in her hand.... it was a letter to me. My son...I think my life has been long enough now..And... I wont visit Seoul anymore...But would it be too much to ask if I wanted you to come visit me once in a while?I miss you so much.. and I was so glad when I heard you were coming for the reunion.But i decided not to go to the school....For you...And i'm sorry that i only have one eye, and i was an embarressment for you.You see, when you were very little, you got into an accident, and lost your eye. as a mom, i couldntstand watching you having to grow up with only one eye... so i gave youmine... I was so proud of my son that was seeing a whole new world for me,in my place, with that eye. I was never upset at you for anything you did..the couple times that you were angry with me,.. I thought to myself, it's because he loves me..'My Son... Oh, My Son...

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Aug 21, 2005

CDAC today. Covering duties. Brought my son to school. He walked around the school and was being looked after by the cleaning lady while i gave tuition for one and a half hour. He walked around and explored the place. He said that he wants to study in my school... so sweet. But it is really difficult to fulfil this as he definitely want him to go to a school which is nearer to his house. Met up with my parents at Chinatown to have brunch. Actually supposed to fetch baby back, but called his handphone and housephone also no answer. So in the end, i let my son follow my parents back. And he called to yell to say that i should have sent him back... even though he did not pick up the phone as he was sleeping. Now he has to travel all the way to the west to fetch, waste petrol and time and he slammed my phone. Gosh... how was i to know? That he is still sleeping till 2 plus. I don't want to make a wasted trip down. Might as well let son spend more time with us which he wants.....

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Aug 20, 2006

Saturday. CDAC as usual. After that, headed down to mother's house to have lunch. Baby was waiting for me there. Played with him, and had an afternoon nap. Then brought baby back to seng kang and he stayed over. Actually had plans to go to club momo but since baby is at home, so in the end, gave it a miss and spent the night with baby. Put baby to sleep and I watched him fell asleep into the dreamland. He looks so sweet and peaceful.... my baby.



This picture was impromptu. Both of us didnt know that we are

each makng funny faces till we saw the pictures...haha.

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Aug 19, 2005

Reached school at 7am. Did duty till 10am. Then i went to the staff lounge to sleep. I slept till 1215pm till Felicia came and woke me up. All of us, as in Aliz and Pauline went to Felicia house to play mahjong till 1715pm. At 1400, she fetch me to fetch my little prince. In the end, my little prince was so good, he just stayed by my side and play with his toys while i played mahjong. And he keeps on lying down on the mattress to play. Chatting to me while he plays. After that, we took a train to mother house. Baby fell asleep when we reached mother's place. I took dinner with parents.

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Aug 13, 2005




Had a super great day today. Had tution in the morning. Then skipped tutorial in the afternoon and went and spent time with my little one. Brought him to jurong point at 230pm. Realised that Charlie and the chocolate factory is at 425pm. So we bought 1 ticket. Stingy me. Went to arcade with him. Let him try DAYTONA 3 times and a TRUCK driving once. Hmmm... he loves driving. And in the end, we went to have my lunch at 330pm, a spaggetti and a scoop of vanilla ice cream for him. Then we went for the movie. Guess wat... the lady stopped us and said that he is over the height limit so gotta pay. I fork out another $9.50 for his seat with a high chair. AND you know what?? He fell asleep during the advertisements before the show even started. Kaoz....but thankfully, he woke up when the girl's nose is turning blue. He finished the show. And he even sat by himself when i went to the toilet halfway. So good of him. In the end, went home after the show, and had dinner. I get knocked out at 8pm. My parents kept him company till 12 plus before he got knocked out. I was totally so tired and shacked.

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