Called up Mother in law. And happen to realised that they came back yesterday. And obviously he never say anything. Not even telling me anything and not even bother to tell me that they flew off or came back. I went down immediately with my mother to see baby. I missed him like crazy. Played with him outside the gate. And the mother in law don't even have the courtesy to invite us inside. Just let us sit on the floor outside the house gate to play. Baby Scars.. and his rashes on his arms make my heart aches so much that he was not well taken care of. And that idiot don't know what happen. Came back at 3pm to fetch son and mother in law out. He must have known that i was there... and took leave to come back... thus cutting short of the time with baby. But nevertheless, its okie. We left earlier as we do not want to see his face. As long as baby knows i love him and want him badly.... that's it. Baby grows taller.. i love him deeply. I just hope that he will understand me and come back to me when he is older.....

I love you.... you know that i do. What can i do... to find the truth... you know i love you.. forever and ever... will be together.. and i'll do it ... just for u.. just for you......