Dear Raphael,

Today under the hot sun again. Catching a glimpse of you once again. Your daddy's gf is still around in the house. Everytime i was there, she is always there also. It hurts so much to see you so close to somebody else and calling her mommy... when you have only one biological mother here.

When i left... i blew you a flying kiss.. and you did the same after looking around to see if anybody was watching you. And you give the sign... SHHHHH! with your fingers to your lips after you blew the kiss.

That's all the support that i need... to know that there is still hope.

Loving you lots, Mommy