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Disappointed


Dear Raphael,

Why am i not surprised to know that you are not in school today? Is it because you are really sick or daddy knows that i will be coming down today that is why he don't allow you to go to school? Actions speak alot now ya....

Walked all the way in to see if you are at home. The house is quiet. I didn't see you.. so i left. Baby, i kept to my promise of seeing you... i promise that i will see you today...

I went to Ai Tong to check out your orientation date, time and your class today. Cos your daddy of course won't tell me about it. Not even your doctor appointment or surgery date loh. He just wants me totally out and disrespecting me as a mother to you. I checked with the AM and realised that when he registered you that day. He told them that i was uncontactable. How can i uncontactable when he can call me balloting day and told me that you got into Ai tong? He just doesn't want me to be there for you or be any decision making about your life. This shows his integrity. Lies lies lies. Which is all he is capable of.

I had my first paper to day. Financial Mathematics. It was ok. I just wished that i could see you today before my exams that's all. I was a disappointed. But then, looking at your pics in my handphone at least made me feel better. One more paper to go... i wonder when will i get to see you. I hope to see you tomorrow. Last day of school already... hope you will be in school.

Missing you lots,
Mommy

LionHeart roars at Thursday, November 16, 2006 0 comments

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Last 3 days






Dear Raphael,

Today, all 3 of us got to see you. We are so happy.

But once you know that i am outside. I heard your friends saying that you mommy is here, you better go and hide. It hurts me bad to hear what your little friends say.

But in the end, we got to speak to you... you were so sad... your tears fell... and your hurtful words leashed out at 3 of us that Grandma started crying to see you so bitter towards us. Everytime, grandma see you... she will always cry.

Oh look at you baby... you got punished and stood at the board. And you kept on saying that it is the boy who is next to you fault. He sprinkled water at you at the toilet.. the plot thickens when it was another boy who said that you scolded him... Teacher said that once your voiced was raised it shows that you are scolding him... so you got to apologised and the boy who sprinkled water at you was just playing and he got to say sorry to you...hmmm.... it got a bit messy there.

Anyway, Baby... try not to raise your voice... it is a very uncouth method and it shows a lot of bad upbringing in a person when one raised voice in an argument or in a conversation.

We waited for you to finish school. And i can see ah ma dragging you away... walking as quickly as she could. We touched you with loving gestures but you ignored us and kept on looking down... Me and grandma was like talking to you while we walked you home like 2 parrots who cannot stop talking. ha ha. Although you treat us cold, but we are still happy just walking you home... although ah ma was purposedly walking so far and fast just to get away from us... we need to run to catch up.

Trying to follow your foot steps.. left right left right left right... you little feet was walking so fast that i got breathless just by saying left right so quickly. You said, 'I don't like you'.... it hurts. But i still say i love you that is why i am here and walking you home... that is also why i am not giving up. Nothing beats a mother's love, not even the father .... please bear that in mind.

Did i manage to catch a little smile that changed to a frown as quickly as it comes?
Only you will know, my little one.

I will on study leave today and tomorrow that is why i can come down to see you. Tomorrow will be my first paper... I am so excited for the end of this semester. It will be my last semester.

So I will see you tomorrow before my exams.

Loving you always,
Mommy

LionHeart roars at Wednesday, November 15, 2006 0 comments

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Dear Raphael,

I have a colleague who have a stepmother and a step-siblings. Her father raised her when she was 3 and her mother left. Now she is already 19 years old. I have always ask her... what did your father say abt your mother? She will say that he said alot of bad things about her... and he doesn't like her to talk about her at all. All the years that she has been growing up... all were negative stuffs. And of course, her step mother treats her own children better than her. She herself can feel it too...

But till now, Why doesn't she look for her mother again? She said that her father won't be happy and will be angry with her if she does it. So is it reprisal.... at the age of 19 and she is afraid of making a step in finding the truth and in finding her mother.... i have always believed that it is more difficult for a woman to give up her flesh and blood than a man...

So when will you look for me baby?

Can i wait that long for you to be a man before you look for me and find the truth?

I showed her your blog... and she said that it is so sad... that her eyes watered and she can cry.

Oh baby... i love you much.

Your Mommy forever,
Love you.

LionHeart roars at Sunday, November 05, 2006 1 comments

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A mother will love you all her life and when She die She will still love you through eternity and beyond.

Thursday, November 16, 2006 9:19:00 AM  

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