Dear Raphael,

Today, all 3 of us got to see you. We are so happy.

But once you know that i am outside. I heard your friends saying that you mommy is here, you better go and hide. It hurts me bad to hear what your little friends say.

But in the end, we got to speak to you... you were so sad... your tears fell... and your hurtful words leashed out at 3 of us that Grandma started crying to see you so bitter towards us. Everytime, grandma see you... she will always cry.

Oh look at you baby... you got punished and stood at the board. And you kept on saying that it is the boy who is next to you fault. He sprinkled water at you at the toilet.. the plot thickens when it was another boy who said that you scolded him... Teacher said that once your voiced was raised it shows that you are scolding him... so you got to apologised and the boy who sprinkled water at you was just playing and he got to say sorry to you...hmmm.... it got a bit messy there.

Anyway, Baby... try not to raise your voice... it is a very uncouth method and it shows a lot of bad upbringing in a person when one raised voice in an argument or in a conversation.

We waited for you to finish school. And i can see ah ma dragging you away... walking as quickly as she could. We touched you with loving gestures but you ignored us and kept on looking down... Me and grandma was like talking to you while we walked you home like 2 parrots who cannot stop talking. ha ha. Although you treat us cold, but we are still happy just walking you home... although ah ma was purposedly walking so far and fast just to get away from us... we need to run to catch up.

Trying to follow your foot steps.. left right left right left right... you little feet was walking so fast that i got breathless just by saying left right so quickly. You said, 'I don't like you'.... it hurts. But i still say i love you that is why i am here and walking you home... that is also why i am not giving up. Nothing beats a mother's love, not even the father .... please bear that in mind.

Did i manage to catch a little smile that changed to a frown as quickly as it comes?
Only you will know, my little one.

I will on study leave today and tomorrow that is why i can come down to see you. Tomorrow will be my first paper... I am so excited for the end of this semester. It will be my last semester.

So I will see you tomorrow before my exams.

Loving you always,
Mommy