Took bus home from SIM. And the bus passed by Raphael's house.

Everytime, i pass by Raphael's house. I will always look longingly into the lane that will bring me closer to him..tears will just well up inside me.... n i just got to look away so as not to think about the pain of him not being near me. And concentrate more on my goals and aims. Guess it is difficult for a mother not to see the son and feel his little hands holding onto mine.

Pain.... guess work is the only thing that can numb the pain inside me. I got to be more busy and concentrate more and not let my mind ran to things that are not within my control. I have control over the kind of life that i want to lead.... happy and carefree. And nothing can get me down.