Lantern Festival In School

Dear Raphael,

Today, my school celebrated lantern festival. It just reminds me of you. This time round, i didn't even go near the spooky house which you like. I was so afraid that i will burst into tears with memories of you. But i stood outsde... and close my eyes. The memories of you bringing me inside the spooky house. Telling me what to do. Is still so clear in my mind. When i was walking on stilts.. i can almost see you standing on the benches... waving at me.

Baby... my heart still aches whenever i think of you. I think this kind of pain will never leave me for life. Cos you are mine....

Yours lovingly, Mommy

LionHeart roars at Saturday, September 30, 2006 0 comments

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Mediation Court

Dear Raphael,

Your daddy was so irritating. I still find him super repulsive and he still move from sofa to sofa and ended up sitting next to me and try to talk... mad. I was such a loser also. I cried in front of him.. tears ran like a tap. Terrible. So unglam. Guess it builds up.. after these few days of emotional yo yo in my private life. What is the point of talking and wanting to make peace when he wants me to withdraw everything? He said that everything i said in the petition is a lie.. which part of it are lies? Mad.. he is just trying to brainwash me into doing things his way again. No way... Oh the lies he told his lawyer about that day when i visit you. He made himself seem so angelic.... when he is such a hypocrite. I was laughing with my lawyer over his lies.. and his stupidity at times. We know it.... but yet he continues to play his one man show just like a clown to amuse us with his sub normal intelligence ways... I miss you baby.

Love Always, Mommy

LionHeart roars at Friday, September 22, 2006 0 comments

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Tomorrow

Dear Raphael,

I paid up for the full renovation loan on the 7th September. It was around 9k plus.. closer to 10k already. Got sick of the stupid bank calling and pressing for payment and of course with that good for nothing daddy of yours... who would rather put 10k with the lawyers than pay up for the bills and prevent the bank from suing. This shows his priorities in life... bad judgement. Wrong priorities. No wonder he got so much to sue here and there. Waste time and money.

I would rather spend it all on courses for you. Speech, drama, art, music classes etc. Anyway, let's see if your daddy will return the 5 k to me or not. If not, this shows his integrity... and i got to sue him for the money back. Irritating to be facing this kind of despicable idiots in life nowadays.

Sorry i have not written to you for the past few days. I am going through a tough period in my life and i am still trying to heal my broken heart. I just hope that you won't be the same kind of liars that most men are, like your daddy also who can lie with his eyes open and no conscience at all. Men... hurt women's heart like nobody business in this cruel world out here. I need you by my side baby to tell me that everything will be alright and sayang me for a while.

I will be going for another mediation court tomorrow. As usual, your daddy will be there. Let's see what kind of lies would he tell the judge again. Can't wait to laugh at his stupidity of his lies... so absurd.

I have not been eating well, sleeping well these since beginning of last week. I hate men who lies. Please baby, don't ever lie to me.. cos i don't think i can take it anymore. My heart is too fragile already. I wonder when can i see you again??

Loving you lots,
Mommy

LionHeart roars at Thursday, September 21, 2006 0 comments

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Your Favourite




Dear Raphael,

As usual, i spent my saturdays with grandma and gong gong.... like how we used to spend with them. Today, they fried your favourite crackers... wished you were here with us. Gong gong was explaining the process in detail.. and i know you would have love to hear gong gong talk about the oil.. the heat.. the temperature in which to put it.....and i can even picture you or even hear your voice... asking him questions.... about it..... sigh....... We really miss you.

I have to break the dried crackers in small pieces before we deep fried it. I can visualise you breaking it with me.... and watching how the little pieces of dry crackers turn into big pieces.. crunchy and crisp in the oil.....

Grandma said that you would have love to eat it immediately... Gong gong said yes... you would have..... I just smiled sadly... maybe one day... maybe one day..

Loving you lots,

Mommy

LionHeart roars at Sunday, September 17, 2006 0 comments

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The Devil Wears Prada





Dear Raphael,

Watched this movie during the holidays....

Remembered that quite long time ago... i went to watch a movie with this guy starring in it.... A few of my polytechnic friends told me that this actor is the same type as your father.. ha ha....

I was laughing last time.... cos this guy is so much better looking than your father loh.. how to compare.... one is in the sky the other is in hell... ha ha....

I guess.. type.. is the word for it.. and not similar look.. ha ha.....

Loving you baby, Mommy

LionHeart roars at Monday, September 11, 2006 0 comments

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Just For You, Baby

Dear Raphael,

Somewhere down the road, you're gonna find a place
It seems so far, but it never is
You won't need to stay, but you might lose your strength on the way

Sometimes you may feel you're the only one
But you won't be alone, I'll be here to carry you along
Watching you 'til all your work is done

Remember, you're gonna get hurt someday somehow
With the lies they have filled
Then you must lift your head, keep it there

Remember what I said
I'll always be with you don't forget
Just look over your shoulder
I'll be there.

If you look behind you, I will be there.

Always there for you, Mommy

LionHeart roars at Monday, September 11, 2006 0 comments

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Thinking of You


Dear Raphael,

Dreamt of you the other night... you were all grown up and you came back and stayed with me. Redecorate your whole room... Grandma and Gong gong was so happy that tears ran down their faces.... What a dream.... Sigh... Hope it will come true one day....

Went to have steamboat around Seng Poh Lane... got reminded of you once again..

Oh baby.. i miss you lots....

Love, Mommy

LionHeart roars at Sunday, September 10, 2006 0 comments

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