Dear Raphael,

Spent more than an hour plus running around your classroom trying to have closer look at you... how you behave... what did you do in class.... You are such a charmer.... sigh....

Sat outside your classroom waiting for you to finish class so that you know that i am there... your father came and fetch you... he waited outside the door as you can see... and he blocked your view from me... he walked down to the corridor way talking to you...and he thought better of it.. and he pointed me out to you... you didn't want to come over so i went over.. you hid behind him all the way refusing to talk answer me... talk to me at all.... But at least you were smiling behind him..

He brought you to the car... and he motioned for me to go over.... you ran into the car immediately....and lock the doors....

Your father was so fake.. he said that i do not need to take pictures so far away.. he didn't say i cannot take picture of you.... of course he didn't ... when he already taught you to hide from me ... hide from my camera.. and run away whenever you see me..... Sometimes.. i wonder what did he say to you about me, grandma and gong gong.... i just hope that you remember what he say......and when you grow up.. see the extend of brainwashing he did to you......

I walked off when you refused to talk to me and see me....he then purposely drove towards my direction...and you rolled down the windows and yelled BYE BYE MOMMY and waved to me.... Tears just ran down my face when you did that.... he knows it... i wonder what did he promised to give you... if you did that... i wonder if he gave you permission to do that.. that is why you did that.... he knows that you are the only one that can bring hurt and tears to me...... just by a simple gestures.. oh he knows... and he is using you as a pawn in this divorce case of ours.....

I love you lots... baby

Loving you from afar, Mommy