Dear Raphael,

Pain is all i felt today. By your words, actions and hostility from ah ma. It was raining, I went to school to look for you as i know that daddy is working. But it so happened, that you are sick once again and not in school. So i went to your house to look for you. Uncle Kim is there. And he didn't lock the gate. So i went in to look for you. You immediately notified ah ma...

You said:
Can you get out my way, my door?

and took up the phone and call that girl whom you called mommy.

Your one sided conversation goes like this:
Mommy, the mommy come already. In my house. *alot of whispers*

So when did i become 'the mommy' when she is 'mommy'.

Then you called your daddy and told him that i am here. Then i assume that daddy asked you to past the phone to ah ma. She spoke all the way in Hokkien. Luckily i know what she is talking about.

Her conversation:
She is in the house in the living room.
She came in. Uncle Kim left the gate open.
How I know?
ah. ah. ah. ah.
I already told her that she is not welcome in the house.
ah. ah. ah. ah.
She is already in the house standing in the hall.
Raphael is always running away to hide.
ah. ah. ah. ah. ah. ok. ok.

Those ah. ah. should be instructions given by your dad. After they put down. Your 'mommy' called again and you said ok.ok.ok.ok. It seems that you are also taking instructions on how to treat me. After all the conversations, you ran upstairs and hide and your ah ma repeated that she has the PPO against me and I can't come in. And how dare i come into her house, this is her house and she has the right not to let me in. And she tell me to get lost.

Come on.. baby. I just came to see you. I didn't even bother to acknowledge her presence.... And she said that she has already called the police which she didn't... but he did. For denying my rights to see my son? When he has already brain washed you till this way. You have been well trained in what you are supposed to said. Very mechanical. You should listen to your own voice and look at your actions. All the time, the phone has been ringing non-stop. The girl and your daddy called so many times to give instructions. Why are they so uptight with me seeing you. And whenever i ask you questions... you keep on looking at ah ma for confirmation. And she is so smart to stand directly behind me all the way when i was talking to you... what does this shows???

Then your ah ma said that she wants to closed the door... as Uncle Kim is going off already. SO i have no choice but to leave... cos i feel safer with Uncle Kim around.. if he is not around.. i wonder what your ah ma will do to me... splash water again.. i guess not.. since i am inside the house. She wouldn't want to dirty the interior of her own house.
Uncle Kim was really nice. He even offers me a ride out.. but i declined as i know that will put him in a difficult position as he is working for your ah gong. There is another impartial person around in the house which is Uncle Kim. He looks at me with the sympathetic smile....
Tears fell down like rain... when i start to walk out..... i can't stop the tears....

I love you baby... always......
I guess pictures are worth a thousand words........
Mommy.

Thought of the day:
It is the people who are stupid enough to believe their own selfishness, and are even willing to hurt their own children for their stupid beliefs.