Dear Raphael,

I miss you so much. I would so much love to see you again today.

Today is the deadline of my TMA and I have lecture tonight. I have always stress on the importance of studies to you so therefore, setting an example is essential. I am so torn between going for my lecture and finishing up my work and going to see you.

But it remains a mystery if i get to see you at all or not. Maybe it will be like last week, you totally ignored us standing outside the gate for 1 1/2 hour. That family treated us like that with hostility, disrespect, unkindly..... it doesn't mean that you should do that to us... we love you so much. And it pained us so much .... to see that you have been influenced in a bad way.

Or would it just be like the inner you... when no one is around.. you are once my baby again... with pure innocence... loving words and gestures....

Do i need to take my chance? Or to wait till you are older...

Sometimes, it would take more than a lifetime to undo the brain washing that they did to you.. my baby. Your blood.. my blood... runs the same... I love you.

Always loving you,
Mommy

P.S: May you enjoy your weekend, my love....