Dear Raphael,

I was working halfway when I received the most outrageous news. It got me and my colleagues in stitches as in really shaking our heads in disbelief and laughter. It seems that 'gong gong' has received a court order to appear in court due to violence against daddy and ah ma. And more surprising enough, i also got to attend court for violence. It is so unbelievable. Does it mean that he is such a loser to be afraid of a woman who is smaller size than him and more fragile? And the joke of the day is that both of them are bigger in size than me. And from the previous posting, you should know that ah ma is the sort to do violence to mommy than mommy to her... as i can't. It is disrespectful... and i have made a promise that I intend to keep for life. I do not blame your ah ma as she loves daddy so much that she is blind to his fault and will help him even though he is at fault.

Previously daddy threatened us that if we don't retract our PPO against him, he will take one against us. And he did. I wonder if he knows that PPO cannot be retracted.... once it is filed against the other party. I find that it is so childish, immature and unreasonable of him to threaten first and then go ahead and file... like finding for a reason to ask us to go for court. That is quite immature of him to think that way. Is he really frighten? I really wonder. Or is he just abusing the PPO for his own interest? Sometimes, these are worth a though. Whereas we are really afraid that in order to see you, we end up getting hurt... just by showing you our love.

As for the PPO taken against daddy, he had hit me before when you were only 3 weeks old. And in our matrimonial home in Seng Kang. And recently he has threatened to hit me again. And of course, i have to go all the way to 32 Fulton Ave to see you, to look for you... i have to protect myself incase he hit me.

Everytime, i am so afraid whenever i go over to see you that i always need 'gong gong' around.... as i know that daddy will resort to violence when there is no one around and no witnesses. As the last few times, he hit me, we were always alone in the room.

Sigh... baby. I know that you have been brain washed all the time. And being fed with lies about mommy. But please see for yourself.... like now. Mommy is so much smaller in size than daddy and ah ma. How can they be afraid? Sometimes, you may tend to believe what ppl say.... but actually size do really matter. And when you are old enough to reason... you may see things more clearly....

I love you...
You know that i do
What can I do
To find the truth
You know I love you
Forever and ever
Will be together
And I'll do it
Just for you....
Just for you.....

Mommy will stay strong just for you....I love you Raphael